logical reasoning

Today is going to be just an ordinary day.But in it's remotely ordinary way it is special..It was special..
Now that i have got enough time to ponder over any and everything in the world...I sumtimes sit back and wonder what is it?
No really, what is it dat lay silently underneath my skin..cold and dead..?? and yet in the most unnatural of times it stings me and reminds of his existence..
I wonder whether it really existed..whether it was real..??? or just a figment of my imaginaton...??
But wen my eyes shift towards the dead skin ... I assure myself with the grose, despicable proof of the past..
The Memories play a confusing role...they r like freeezing winter winds...sudden. A chill runs thru my spine...
Ther's absolutely no heartbeat..the heart had stopped beating long ago...
still in some uncanny manner a sudden but soft jerk can be observed at the monitors...
time transcends barrier...
I see a bus stop..and a bus ,, and many buses preceding it.. every day like a routine..
I see the staircase..wher i repeatedly walk past the ghost of the past..
I see you..standing right infront of me...
I am left wondering...y i don't feel anything... absolutely nothing..
U slowly started to move away ..
I called u once.... from behind..just to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
u never looked back....